What's been on my mind

I've been thinking about this song lately (full lyrics below). It's called "Lonely Soldier" by Damien Rice.

And may you be satisfied to never know why 

Sometimes someone just wants to die 

When I was 14, my life was impacted by another person's suicide in a peculiar way. I didn't know him, but, because of the circumstances, his suicide has followed me for more than 10 years now. I go through cycles of remembering and forgetting, of dwelling and letting go. 

I can't blog more about it now, but I wanted to post the song lyrics...just because. No reason.

Lonely soldier go home

Lonely, but never alone 

Good eyes see nothing to shoot 

Good feet feel good giving up good boots 

So ask your father how'd you fall 

Ask your mother how'd you fall 

Like a leaf sitting on the ground 

Good for nothing 'cept kicking around

 She died with her hands stretched out 

She died with a hungry mouth 

She died with her mind full of doubt 

And thoughts of weakening 

So may your river never dry 

And may your mouth never lie 

And may you be satisfied to never know why 

Sometimes someone just wants to die 

So where'd you get those cuts in your hand 

I thought I told you about playing in the sand 

There's always someone careless with glass 

There's always questions you don't want to ask. 

She died with her hands stretched out 

She died with a hungry mouth 

She died with her mind full of doubt 

And thoughts of weakening 

So may your river never dry 

And may your mouth never lie

And may you be satisfied to never know why 

Sometimes someone just wants to die  

So lonely soldier go home 

Lonely, but never alone 

Good eyes see nothing to shoot 

Good feet feel good giving up good boots