Monday, June 15, 2009

Conundrum...HELP!!!

I've lived here for 2.5 years now. I feel like I have so much invested here.

...but in the last month, I've had a recent not-so-good conversation with my bosses that seem to possibly imply that they don't want me around anymore and that it's only a matter of time. I can't tell for sure, but it's a possibility.

...and today an old friend from Lafayette told me about a management opportunity at her newspaper that would be a nearly sure thing...a chance to start over with a company that doesn't seem to want to get rid of me. It probably wouldn't be much of a pay raise, if any, because it's a very small daily paper, but apparently they're in desperate need of someone...but it would be in Lafayette.

...but I don't feel like I've done everything here I want to do here. I don't feel like I'm finished.

...but if I get fired from my job here, there's not much opportunity anywhere in the newspaper business, since the whole industry started collapsing upon itself last year. I've looked at job opportunities in *anything* around here. There's not much available I'm immediately qualified for, besides cashiering. I'd be screwed. It's not like I'm married or live five blocks from my parents. I can't just easily move into my parents' house (not that I would *want* to anyway, for the record). I *have* to work if I want to live in this area.

...so what if I decide to pass up the opportunity in Lafayette and end up without a job here? Then I'm the idiot who couldn't make it and passed up a chance to save her butt from the unemployment line. 

...but what if I leave, even though I don't want to, and would have never lost my job if I'd stayed? 

...so I'm going to go throw up now. Then I guess I'll start praying. I need an answer by the end of this week, so I guess I'd better get a jump on things. Anyone with insight feel free to drop a line.

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